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Boundaries have been difficult for me to learn. I spent a very long time feeling hurt, taken advantage of, afraid, angry, and sometimes just plain ticked off. Fourteen months ago, when I realized I'd hit bottom, I decided little by little that I wanted to LIVE, and I did not want to feel hurt, angry, afraid or confused any more.
A bottom line is tangible definition of what you will or will not tolerate in your life. A threat is a declaration of expectations and consequences if that expectation is not met. The major difference between bottom lines and threats is motivation.
Setting boundaries isn't easy, but it's absolutely necessary for those of us in recovery and those who love us.
With my mom joining Al-Anon and my dad AA, I saw how our household changed from chaos to love. I witnessed the mighty shift of recovery first hand. But at the time, I did not want anything to do with their programs or their newfound love for me. I was heavy into my own alcoholism and I was loving my booze and drugs a lot more than I was loving my family or myself.
My relationship with my sons was very different back when I was drinking. I wanted them to be what I wanted them to be. I couldn't accept myself and my failings, and therefore I couldn't accept them. Recovery has changed all that. I'm okay with me and I'm okay with their choices. I know that if I leave my sons in the hands of God and AA, they will be very well taken care of.
My father had two very distinct personalities. The same father who tenderly gave me café au lait on a spoon and fresh-squeezed orange juice in a baby glass, who listened to my childish sentences with such pride and pleasure, who worked all of his life to give me the best of everything ... that same beloved father had a monster living inside him. And that monster was as frightening to me as the other side of him was beautiful. And that monster grew stronger with each drink he took.
Oftentimes, clients arrive at my office in their mid-thirties feeling that something is missing, that they have a sort of inner wound that isn't really healing. Traumatic memories are often getting re-stimulated when clients again attempt to enter intimate relationships - where the very attempt at deep connection brings up old unresolved pain around intimate/family relationships.This is what PTSD is: pain from a previous trauma is emerging days, months or even years after the fact in a post traumatic stress reaction.
Adults, when under the influence of alcohol, don't always think of how scary they might look in the eyes of a child. This powerful video from the National Association for Children of Alcoholics (NACoA) depicts the way a child's observations at home changed their view of "playing house."
The precondition for love is the discovery of otherness. But it's the discovery of otherness without judgement. That you find that this person you're living with is not you.They're also not like the picture you have of them, and they're not like the fantasy you wish they were. And when that happens, transformation occurs.
Living for many years beside the twister of an alcoholic husband does its own damage. It fractures and weakens. Tears and breaks. As we started to heal, we started to talk.Gone were the layers of deceit and resentment. Unbeknownst to us, the process of coming together in a new and healthy way was starting to happen.

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